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coulou's cafe trumpet meditations (no. 59)

smol thing if you'd like to help support this project, you can do so here: https://buymeacoffee.com/coulou thank you ! hello lovely lovely humans, i hope everyone is doing good out there. sending lots of love to all of you. i'm somewhere far out in the woods in a cabin solo this week, making music and spending time with myself. as usual i planned this trip super last minute, and as usual the timing has been really particular. i think the equinox was yesterday, todays the jewish new year (shana tova), my astrology chart is also sayin some crazy stuff too. i dont really understand how that all works but everytime i read it im like damnnnnn how is it that specfically accurate. right now feels like the beginning of a new chapter, maybe one i don't feel completely ready for, but one i think i need to step into. i've done a lot of these solo cabin music making trips since 2020. they've really become an integral part of my creative process. its funny that after all these times i still struggle with the same internal conflicts. i always go into it thinking wow im gonna make an entire album and record soooo many meditations and probably read multiple books and meditate and do yoga, just all these good good things. and then i get up here, make a song, eat a big big dinner, get sleepy play some guitar, whoops find out theres a dvd player, watch a random movie, ooo hungry again and have a snack, go on a long long walk, come back, play some trumpet and woah the suns gone down. i'll look at my notebook and see the hour to hour schedule id written down and see i missed everything on the list. i'll get annoyed at myself being so off track, a few more days pass and some version of that continues. but.. everytime i start getting towards the end of the week, i look back and see wow, i did do so much. new songs were written, meditations were recorded, books were read. just not in this strict perfect system of a way. and then my first thought is wow, you were doing the work you needed to do the whole time, there was no need to be so hard on yourself though. it's something i know i struggle with and i think a lot of us do. no matter how well we meet our expectations, our inner critic does not care. the critic is just a habit, a muscle, but it is not actually invested in your life, its invested in criticising you, its a constant practice sooo right now im taking a moment to recognize that my inner critic will only go away if i start trusting and appreciating myself more. there's no great accomplishment i will ever do that will satisfy the critical voice. if i wrote the greatest song of alllll time today, i'd wake up tomorrow hearing the critic tell me "welp i guess the rest of your life will look like a failure compared to that moment, good luck." so just remember, you can want to be better, you can fight to be great! but that critical voice is not on your side, you can work hard and grow while being kind and supportive of yourself. okok thats just some advice i needed to hear. also its tuesday and i started uploading this video monday night, not sure if it'll make it up today or tomorrow cause this wifi is slowwwww out here. i hope this video brings you some peace in these crazy times. also shoutout to ‪@orangewoodguitars‬ and ‪@jhs‬ and ‪@watchAIAIAI‬ for helping me create this beautiful sounds. lovelovelove all of you, coulou