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please_use_me - pretending_its_not_my_fault [onumi]

You can grab the EP here - https://onumi.bandcamp.com/album/pret... *Please keep in mind these songs are originally from September 2018* Below are the original poems written for this EP, visible in the soundcloud descriptions. Underneath the poems I have written an explanation of this project, it's intention, why these songs exist, and the future of this project. I hope you will read through all of it. Much love. from_your_memories 1) please_hear_me [wander around and grope the walls] [hear your doubts and see the rest] [leaving again] [empty promises and painful falls] [taste the sun and feel your best] [leaving again] [...] [throwing up for a single chance] [...] [holding your hand for a single glance] [...] [leaving again] 2) please_understand_me [dogs are easy] [simple to please] [quick to love] [without much work] [their trust is won] [their life stuck to yours] [they follow you out] [wait for you to get back] [and stay up late to protect you] [they love you for their food] [they love you for their warmth] [they love you for their friendship] [sometimes we mess up] [and they get hurt] [but they understand] [it isnt easy] [to hurt a dog for good] [but i think you found a way] 3) please_forgive_me [it's ripping] [it's tearing] [we're clotting] [you're gushing] [they're crying] [i'm promising] [...] [it's helping} [i'm feeling] [you're apologizing] [...] [they're lying] [we're regretting] [it's hiding] [...] [i'm pretending] [you're forgiving] [i'm hoping] [you] [look] [closer] please_use_me is a project from 2018. It was a vent project where whenever i felt the need to self harm, i would open ableton instead, make a song in one sitting, and post it. Later on it took on a different secondary purpose, that being a 'secret' alt-account. There was an incident a while ago where I was abused by a person of power in my community, and when I told them to leave me alone they turned the situation around and lied to everyone, saying that I was the actual abuser - and everyone believed, and enabled him, all the way up until he eventually r**** and impregnated someone. No one believed their story, so I finally dumped all of our message logs as backup for them. During this era, I was extremely hated online. Everywhere I went, anywhere I popped up, would be spammed with comments and messages about my 'abusive tendencies'. This was many years ago but I find myself still dealing with a lot of this trauma. During this time I used the please_use_me account as an alt to post music where I wouldn't be harassed by said community, this is why please_use_me did not previously exist on my own youtube, or spotify. An interesting result of this was that I would get a comment from an individual on my main account telling me to k*m*s* , followed by the same person commenting praises and high regards on please_use_me. This duality and constant harassment was difficult to deal with, and through meeting new friends and rekindling with old ones [anchew, varien, must die, terror, dossyx, creepp, zaphyre, maxim, akira complex, yeetballs, knotset, and many others] I was able to just move on with my life (mostly) and separate from the please_use_me project all together - several of these friends [notably must die] were very helpful in pushing me to finally speak my truth to begin with, and I lost the need to use this account, and no longer dealt with such insanely pressing mental issues. However, the project is making a return. This time it is centered around the loss of my friend Charlie, otherwise known as Akira Complex. I am still debating on how I want to handle this release, as I do not in a million years want to use the passing of ANYONE, let alone such a nice person as Charlie, to be used as 'promotion' or the like. The upcoming please_use_me EP has an insane amount of elements and story to it, and I really hope it is received as well as it has been behind closed doors. I miss you a lot Charlie. You were the first artist I looked up to that interacted with me, gave me such motivation, and helped me through the trauma that caused the original please_use_me EP to begin with. I find it grimly fitting that the next, and possibly last, please_use_me project will be dedicated to you, when you were an essential part in my coping of the first EP's cause. If you managed to read through all of this, then thank you.