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coulou's cafe trumpet meditations (1hr) - cozy home mix

hey lovely friends! sending everyone lots of love, hope you are doing well out there. its been a slightly bumpy few weeks for me, i'm sorry i've gotten a bit behind on my meditations. i was actually supposed to shoot my 50th meditation upstate at this incrediblee church turned airbnb - https://www.airbnb.com/trips/v1/reser... (please check them out, honestly one of the best best stays ive ever had). i've gone upstate a bunch of times and recorded meditations, this time i was lucky enough to bring a few of my closest friends. we spent two nights there, and on the first morning i got up early to set up all my equipment in this beautiful space. i brought both guitars, both trumpets, all my pedals, my audio interface, multiple microphones, my camera, my laptop and more. everything was plugged in and a realized i couldnt find this one smalllll cable that connected allll this stuff to my computer to record the audio. my heart sank, it really did. i was hours from any store that could possibly carry that cable and i only had this day to shoot. i wanted to get it done early in the morning so i could spend the day hiking with my friends, and i was spending hours trying to figure out what i could do. after a ton of tinkering i was able to get something running, but when i recorded the meditation, unfortunately the audio didn't work :/ and honestly it was a really good meditation. i was sad, my heart felt heavy, i wanted to just stay in and sulk all day. it was supposed to rain all day, but by noon the sun came out, the clouds cleared, and the temperature went up. after some encouragement from my wonderful friends, i put everything down embarked on a hike with them. we just typed in "trail" on google maps and clicked on the closest thing that popped up. the head of the trail was a little under a mile away, so we headed out. turns out this trail was behind a superrrr old cemetery, was honestly really cool to walk through there and feel the presence of all these past lives. in the back of the cemetery there was a little gap in the forest and that was our trail. it felt like i was back in the california redwoods. moss everywhere, a gorgeous flowing river, a blue heron, mushroooms all over the place. a real childlike sense of wonder came back to me as we continued down this hike, the heaviness in my heart began to lift as well. i found a smile, and a laugh, and joy crept in more and more with each step i took deeper into the woods. at one point on our walk the was a small, but veryyyy loud waterfall and we all decided to take a little rest there. i wanted to take a moment to myself so i sat right next to the waterfall where it was loudest and closed my eyes and breathed. unexpectedly, i ended up sitting there for about an hour, my mind racing through so many things that had been stressing me out these past weeks, i could follow the path of all my anxiety culminating to the moment i forgot that one cable and couldn't record. i sat and continued to breath through these thoughts, the overwhelming noise of the waterfall accompanying every one of them. as these anxious thoughts entered my mind, i began letting them go. i started to let go of pain, expectation, fear, anxiety, hurt, selfishness, one by one. i could feel the weight of each of those drifting off, seamingly into the river flowing in front of me. i began to ask myself, why do i do music? why am i in this constant pursuit of art? why have i built this specific life around me, and why have i worked so hard to get here? why do i hold onto the friendships i have? why do i keep a close relationship to my family? why do i spend so much time cooking each week? why do i have so many plants in my apartment? why do i keep a fish tank? why do i have a cat?? why, why, why to all the things i do. my heart had been so heavy these past weeks and i hadnt even noticed, i was just existing within the the feeling, too deep inside of it all to have any perspective. and so so simply, the answer to these endless questions, for me, was these are all sources of profoundly deep love. its so easy for the things you love the most to cause you the most pain, it's the reality that you can't control any of it that can make it all so scary, so anxiety provoking. but i sat there and continued to breath, and slowly but surely i zoomed out. saw myself on the side of a river, with people i love, on a beautiful day, yes so much of the world and everything around us is in turmoil, but for that brief second i let go and allowed myself to just exist. the thundering sound of the waterfall turned into an all consuming silence. i realllly let go, the weight truly lifted off of me. i found a moment of genuine bliss. im back in brooklyn writing this and reminding myself of this feeling, and it feels good. thanks everyone for being the best, love you all, i will have new meditations coming this weeeek :) lovelovelove, coulou https://linktr.ee/coulou_