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Dirty Monkey - Dysmorphia

The second look and listen off the upcoming full length 1,000 Years of Misery. Dysmorphia Time stops for no one! Some of us are gifted the ability to grow old and some are taken much too soon, by their own hands or by fates. The acceptance of others should not matter but for some reason it can effect us. The acceptance of ourselves is what matters most though, and that's even harder for some of us. It can be growing old, gaining weight, feeling unlovable the possibilities are A endless avalanche that contribute to depression. I've lost loved ones by their own hands and by others, and that feeling haunts me daily. The pain is unmeasurable, but knowing that pain has been what keeps me here. Because I don't want to give that same pain to others I love. I hope when you feel you can't push on anymore that you have that source or knowledge of the impact it will have, and get you over that roadblock. Remember no matter how alone you feel there is always someone somewhere on this planet (even a stranger) that would rather listen to what you're going through then have to attend your funeral. Lyrics Finally Broken I never really liked me Most days I hate how I look And that reflects how I feel From the hairs on my head To the toes on my feet I’m told how handsome I am But that means nothing to me I can’t stop judging myself So I watch what I eat I exercise everyday Cause in my mind I am weak And it just builds up inside Until there’s no place to go You say an eating disorder more like existence disorder Each time I’m leaving the shower I see my hair in the drain It won’t stop thinning on top While on my face it turns gray These are the thing that I see All the stuff that’s wrong with me And now that’s just on the surface as my depression just worsens You see I tell all my friends That I wish I was dead And though it seems like a joke I have it planned in my head But one day it will come When I actually do it Forgive the choice that I make I have to stop all this pain It’s not just my appearance That I hate about me I hurt the ones that I love Because the ego I feed A self destructive life cycle That I can’t seem to shake Over and over again I need to seal my fate I’ll start cry for no reason Then I give myself one Remember times that I had With someone who is now gone Never to see them again And I miss everyone This happens too many times How fucking often I cry When I wake up tomorrow That’s when the nightmare begins It’s this fucking mundane routine That has me going insane You know I feel so worthless that there’s nothing to gain Tomorrow, tomorrow repeat It’s all the fucking same There was a time when I could hide this Before I met you, but then you showed me the type of person, it’s created I don’t know if I was better off that way I had armor I was confident I was able to ignore the things wrong in me I’m never happy I’m always working Distracted and starving This feeling is blinding, I can only see the ugly inside me And the outside reflects my inside I don’t know who it is looking back at me Tired and weak I check my phone everyday I hope to see you pop up Just to know your okay If I can’t be there for you It makes me feel like shit I wish my brain would just stop But my heart it won’t quit I keep on filling my schedule To keep me constantly busy If I don’t have to think Then there’s no time to hurt This candle burns at both ends With a wick in the middle We used to love the hot wax But now its just a sad lyric Being stripped of emotions That sounds like heaven to me Never to feel again Or have you haunting my dreams No more inferior complex No more pain in my life No more love and devotion FUCK MY HEART WITH A KNIFE All music and film written, shot, and edited by TheDirtyMonkeyofficial Mixed and mastered by OnPire Mix