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Thank You for the Venom - MCR Acoustic Cover || Gavin Michaels

This song means so much to me. Two years ago, I was really struggling with panic attacks, I was overworked, and I was suicidal. At one point, I was driving on the freeway when I had a panic attack, and this song came on. I started screaming and crying and it occurred to me I could end it all right there. I almost jerked the wheel. For some reason I remember that moment so clearly, it was like time slowed down, and I was so present like I had never been before. I could feel my muscles wanting to turn the wheel. I was so so close to killing myself, but thank god I didn’t. I wouldn’t be here to talk about it. That wasn’t my last instance of being so close to suicide, but it was certainly the most impactful. I eventually told my mom what was up, and my family was unbelievably supportive, and they helped me get through my depression and suicidality. Two years later, I’m still alive, and thriving. I knew “things would get better.” I knew that. That didn’t matter, it wasn’t that I wanted to die it’s that I wanted to stop living till things were better. I’m sorry to say you just have to push through the garbage parts of life till you reach the good. That’s never easy. My mom didn’t want me on anti-depressants so I took supplements, made sure I was eating, exercising, and changed a number of other things about my lifestyle. It took a long time. But it got better. It’s hard, but guys I cannot express to you how much better the other side feels once you’ve experienced the worst of it. Don’t give up hope. Don’t think you won’t ever be happy. And for the love of god have patience with yourself. Beating myself up over my panic attacks and my feelings was probably the worst thing I could have done for myself. Know that people love you, and that more people you haven't even met yet are going to love you. I don’t know if this song saved my life, or almost ended it, but regardless it reminds me that I’m alive. It always will. __________________________________________________________________________________ SOCIAL MEDIA @_gavinmichaels   / _gavinmichaels   Gavin Michaels