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DATING TIPS- Borderline Personality Disorder I Bipolar Barbie

I have struggled in every relationship I have ever had because you showed me the most terrible version of love around. Pain was love, rejectioni was love, proving my worth constantly was love, being told I wasnt good enough was love, always pleasing others at the cost to myself. An intense fear of conflict because rejection soon after follows. My greatest fears, never being accepted, therofore loved and being worthless. The say you marry someone like your father and I sure did. I guess I figured if I could get them to love me, then I could show you that I AM loveable and maybe you would love me too. But they all ended up rejecting me after months of torment and pain. Afraid to let go for fear of being alone and proving you right, that I was unloveable. I held on to the hope so tight that it strangled me and sucked out my life. Borderline is this thing that has hold of me, a monster that controls me. I wrangle with it every day just to keep myself alive. It cripples me, it crushes and burns me alive. I feel the sensation all over my body. I have no choice but to endure it and that is why I say I dont live, I barely survive. I dream of the day I can one day live free from this suffering, while others think of thriving in this world I never seemed to fit into. You say I am the most unemotional person you have ever met. Thats just because I have hid my emotions from you for years. All because I never wanted you to win. So I was strong on the outside while I crumbled inside. I stood tall when you wanted to make me feel small. During all this I could not only feel my own emotions as they caught fire with such intensity, but I could feel yours too. Your anger towards me was intense, it still is. It simmers like a long burning fire bubbling under the surface. I have finally severed the imaginary ambilical cord you had tied around my neck. But the wrath of what you had created, was planted so deep inside me I dont ever think it can be fully exterminated. Breaking miss leading stereotypes about the "crazy" in all of us. Qualification? LIVED EXPERIENCE!! www.bipolarbarbie.com FACEBOOK   / thebipolarbarbie   INSTAGRAM   / the_bipolar_barbie   TWITTER   / bipolarbarbieau   INSTAGRAM:   / the_bipolar_barbie   TWITTER:   / bipolarbarbieau   FACEBOOK:   / thebipolarbarbie   YOUTUBE:    / bipolarbarbie   WEBSITE: www.bipolarbarbie.com Make sure to follow all of other socials and share my content as much as you can!! Lets spread the word! INSTAGRAM:   / the_bipolar_barbie   TWITTER:   / bipolarbarbieau   FACEBOOK:   / thebipolarbarbie   YOUTUBE:    / bipolarbarbie   WEBSITE: www.bipolarbarbie.com