Becoming myself. 3.5 years after becoming 'suddenly autistic' I finally found myself скачать в хорошем качестве

Becoming myself. 3.5 years after becoming 'suddenly autistic' I finally found myself

In this video I share my journey of integrating my late-diagnosed autism diagnosis into my self-image. I talk about how it's been feeling and the support and conditions I've needed to heal and become true to myself. I've not so much changed as grown - grown out of my half-self and into my full self. ----- At first, it felt like I'd been handed part of my identity, my autistic self, in a backpack that I must announce to everyone 'oh don't mind that, it's just my autistic starter pack' but after a while I noticed myself taking up space differently. First, it was a little self-conscious and clunky, as if a little voice inside me was announcing ‘you can get your fidget toy out if you want’, ‘it’s OK to say no’ or ‘you don’t have to stay for the whole thing. Leave when you want’. In those moments I felt almost like there were two of me. There was ‘old Amanda’ and ‘Autistic Amanda’ with old Amanda still trying to maintain control in her usual pragmatic, detached way... Then one day, a little after the fact, while reflecting on my day, I realised my inner voice had changed. I thanked old Amanda and buried her. Old Amanda was dead. Long live Amanda! I'll always remember those 'suddenly autistic' feelings and will keep that very much in mind while continuing on with this Vlog but for now, I'll be approaching the world in a much more natural and integrated way. My autism is me and I'm it and so much more to boot!