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Pre-newyears eve thoughts: Daily Vid #47

It was a little hard pressing record today. I keep thinking about quitting and I hate to whine about it but idk, it's just how I feel. The fact that I'm so close to day 50 and then the thought of reaching 100 is really the main thing keeping me going right now. Setting these milestones is just enough to keep me motivated and I fear I might not care in the future. I think im just tired rn. I've been doing a lot of introspection and im trying to figure out why it's so hard for me to stick with challenges or goals I set for myself like this one. I keep telling myself I want to edit videos and stream, but theres this idea that it won't matter. Maybe that's why I procrastinate it. Man, I didn't want to make this so real and depressing? I think I gotta be more positive about myself and think about the reasons why I should do it and ignore the thoughts that hold me back. I always tell myself that I won't be entertaining enough or good enough to deserve success. But maybe that's where my fault is. I'm driven to be successful even on my first tries and I'm scared I'm gonna fail. But I need to realize that failure is the best teacher. Lol, I just went through like 3 whole phases in a description box. Anyway, I wanna thank the people who have encouraged me to keep going, even when I want to quit. Take care of yourselves and I'll see you tomorrow and have a happy new year!