I fell for you. - Poem by J. скачать в хорошем качестве

I fell for you. - Poem by J.

This is a poem about someone I used to love a long time ago. (it is VERY gay) poem starts below if you'd rather read ↓↓↓ When we met I was young I look at pictures from that time and look to my eyes I see the difference between then and now Whether it’s hope and innocence, or naivety In those moments I remember everything Every joke Every deep conversation Every feeling I remember being 15 I remember staying up all night to talk to you I remember being excited to talk to you as soon as we both got out of school I remember all my defensive walls falling as we grew closer I remember feeling safe for once And I remember it was because of you I remember being 16 Our group of friends being closer than ever At least it felt that way I didn’t see how I was mistreated, but you did You were older and you saw how she mistreated me Yet you didn’t care, you urged me to stay Making me wait for her to change, but you knew she wouldn’t Time and again you dragged me back to suffer some more And you didn’t seem to care, but I still clung to you I trusted your morals I trusted you I remember the way jokes turned to feelings And those feelings were real and they meant something and so did you Because I loved you But you chose her I wasn’t upset you didn’t choose me I remember the way jokes turned to feelings And those feelings were real and they meant something and so did you Because I loved you And you chose her You always chose her over me, but I wasn’t upset I remember being 17 I remember all the dreams I had about you I remember the intense emptiness I felt without you I remember the way I fell apart when I realized how I felt My mask of strength crumbling into dust as I realized it was too late Never before had I felt so worthless Now I’m the same age you were when we met Now I just feel ashamed I let you make me believe it was my fault I’m now embarrassed at how much I self-destructed over losing you I’m disgusted I ever saw you as good I’m disappointed you fell for an abuser I hate that I ever fell for you I hate that I’ll never have the chance to scream at you for everything I hate that I’m still hurt by the way you tossed me aside I hate that you leaving made me fall to my rock bottom Yet despite all that I don’t hate you I don’t love you But I don’t hate you You don’t deserve either You didn’t care about me Therefore you don’t matter enough to be hated or loved You are simply a distant memory One I no longer miss But wherever you are now I hope you’re happy with your choice Because I know I am. Goodbye. btw this post has nothing to do with valentines day i only realized that after i recorded and posted this hope yall are happy im over here in desperate need of my anti-depressants lol