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The year of 2018...

Firstly to those in the video I’m too much of an anxious wally to ask if you mind so please message me and I’ll take it down if you don’t want to be in it. This year has been an odd one. I ended last year in a very bad place mentally and this continued into 2018 I ended up in hospital a few more times but things definitely got better. I’ve now been 9 months without hospitals and 2 without services. I’m managing to be okay and that’s kinda cool. A soppy sappy rubbish poem I wrote last night :))) I haven’t written in months so I’m not very good at it but yeah here’s the words...: The year of 2018 I can’t work out if you were mean Or perhaps you just wanted me free Because now I think I’m truly me I started the year in fear Holding myself in the firing line Hoping that death could be mine I started the year by losing everything I knew I couldn’t tell what was true... For everything you took it opened a new book Made me stop and look I’m going to be okay ... but it may take time and that’s fine. I needed a break, to take things slow I needed to know that things were going to get low You pushed me down to the bottom of hope Made me think I couldn’t cope Each time I thought I was losing you propped me up said there is no choosing Life is here take it now And find out just how good things can be if you just turn around and see... I opened my eyes and it was still dark But as I kept climbing and making my mark I was finding the light began shining As cheesy as it sounds I felt liked I’d been found I tried my best to move on from the past to look forward to the rest of what was to come Do more of what makes you happy A quote that everyone hears Sure but who has time for what they enjoy Life is busy i can’t take a break just for fun I have things to do life won’t go on pause This year I learnt that taking some time just for me To find out what I can be Was actually the only way I was going to get better If I hadn’t taken a break I’d be ill forever And my forever would have been short... Now thanks to this year, I’m going to be here for some time longer I lost some great friends, hit some new lows, but I chose to stand up stronger I accomplished a lot of things I never had dreamed Things are still tricky but at least I have hope At the start of 2018 I set some goals to achieve And I didn’t get all of them, not even close but then I made some new friends great ones too Got some good grades I’ll admit it true I sang I danced I performed some more My confidence is growing although it’s still pretty poor I learned to be me and that’s pretty cool I can be weird and I can be different I can be odd and I can be free I still look to my past and miss it But I won’t go back because this is it All in all I’m glad I survived and 2019 I’m ready for more.