Iskcon’s past, and some of its present, is troubling me скачать в хорошем качестве

Iskcon’s past, and some of its present, is troubling me

The answer begins at 3:50. Here is the question: Forgive me but I have a difficult question. Recently a devotee showed me an article about the murder of the devotee Sulocana Pr, and it contains all the details about how it was planned and covered up for over a year. It made me feel especially hurt and scarred because one of the devotees mentioned was the husband of one of the nicest person I've met and who helped me become interested in Krishna Consciousness which no doubt has made my life much healthier and happier than it was pre-Krishna. The article describes this exactly how he is and it freaked me out that I could have spent so much time with someone who has been a part of such an evil crime. The other thing that makes me uneasy is about Radhanath Swami who is implicated and there is another article about how he treated one of his disciples very insensitively. I used to practically worship Radhanath Swami but now I can't understand if I had deceived myself? In one sense how can he speak so eloquently and have started such amazing projects if he's not empowered by God? I also had trouble believing some things written in Journey Home? Any advice would be appreciated? I understand that these things don't necessarily effect my life directly, I don't see anything corrupt going on in NAME-OF-A-CITY although hearing from other people I know there were some unethical dealings taking place in the NAME-OF-THE-CITY Temple when I was first becoming inspired by the Hare Krishna movement. There was a time I thought the best path to perfect my life was to get initiation and spend the morning going to mangala arati chanting 16 rounds minimum, going to work and then spending the evening with devotees and spend the weekend with devotees and try to put all my attention on kirtan and the other processes of devotional service. Now my life has become so busy and I went through a difficult experience dealing with NAME-OF-A-DEVOTEE at the NAME-OF-THE-CITY Temple and coming back to NAME-OF-THE-CITY I feel slightly out of place so I've been too far removed from devotee association that I feel totally out of place. Then when I hear about the murder in New Vrindavan and I question if Radhanath Swami is really a holy person it makes me confused but my personal experience was that I never felt as happy or satisfied or devoted to God as when I associated with devotees especially in kirtan and there have been so many wonderful experiences when I went to the Polish tour or other big festivals in NAME-OF-THE-CITY or just simple home gatherings, these were the best moments of my life which makes me believe of course Krishna Consciousness is the best use of my time or the best most effective way to purify myself but I still feel so uneasy about the corruption of the past. Thanks for reading please let me know any helpful advice, how did you confront these issues and decided to make your whole career as a Swami? = = = Become a patron: www.patreon.com/likeadarkcloud www.paypal.com/paypalme/16rounds