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Everything is on my shoulders and I'm breaking

Hey, If last week was rough, this one was even harder. My manager asked if I want to become employed. The moment he asked, I felt this heavy weight on my shoulders. I know employment brings security, but I really don't like working for him. The idea makes me feel so resistant. Plus I'd lose money, which hurts. I told him to consider me, but honestly, I'm praying he picks someone else. It's the strangest feeling. We're struggling with money right now, so I feel like I have to say yes. I haven't slept well. I'm torn and afraid. I'm also starting to question if I want to stay here forever. It's far from home, far from family and friends. The language is hard. My husband doesn't speak it at all. With the cat, going back and forth isn't easy, and we don't have anyone here to help. We're thinking of going back to Italy earlier than planned. If we do, my husband can work too, which would help. Right now, everything is on my shoulders. I still walked 10,000 steps every day, which I'm proud of. But the eating got worse. A couple of nights we had popcorn and chocolate during movies. When my mental health drops, everything else follows. My mood is low, honestly. There are so many life changing decisions I'm pushing away. I want to start my new work, but I can't find customers yet. And with a full time job taking 8 hours or more, there's not much time left. Progress is progress. At least I'm not going backwards. It's just very, very slow. 💕 Fede