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Vomiță Regurgitescu - Before the First Breath

Lyrics: I learned to fade while standing still A practiced kind of loss Every day removed a piece Without a mark, without a cost I wore myself like borrowed skin Returned it clean, returned it dry No sudden fall, no final sin Just less of me each time I tried Nothing broke Nothing bled I only thinned where I once said “I” After this — the same as before No dark, no light, no open door No memory to crucify No witness left to ask me why What waits for me has never known A name, a fear, a shape, a home I end the way I first began Absent — unburdened — unplanned I disciplined the urge to feel Until it learned to starve Called erosion “self-control” And weakness “being sharp” The mirror kept a softer face As something underneath withdrew I didn’t lose a war or faith I simply stopped becoming “true” No descent No ascent Just weight released from discontent After this — the same as before No silence loud enough to roar No self to save, no soul to spend No narrative that needs an end What waits for me has never cared If I was whole or if I spared My breath dissolves into the span That never asked for who I am Before the cry Before the name Before the hunger learned its shape There was no need There was no lack No forward pull, no urge to last If that is where the dead are placed Then death is only time erased No reckoning No release No grand design beneath the skin Just the slow relief Of not insisting On being someone In the end After this — the same as before No answer hiding in the floor No truth too heavy to ignore Because there’s no one left to know I don’t collapse — I disengage From weight, from form, from inner age I leave no shadow, scar, or plan I end where nothing first began No void No peace No flame Just absence, pure and unashamed What I became was overruled By what I never was at all