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How I Got Here This is what I want to do with my Youtube Channel. I used to think I was a healthy man. No plaque in my arteries. I walked everywhere. When I walked, people couldn’t keep up with me. I only ran one half marathon in my life, but I was healthy, nonetheless. Then one day in my forties, I coughed or sneezed and blew out my carotid artery and had a stroke. I was a reporter at the time, and through two years of therapy, had to learn to talk, to walk, to read, to write again. I got a lot of it back, but I will never be the same. Half my body is partially paralyzed, I had to switch to my left hand, have coordination issues. I have aphasia, which means I can’t talk. Over the next eight years, I slowly acclimated to my new life. Then, about two years ago, my groin became numb. Then I couldn’t stand up from filling the dog bowl. I went to the hospital three times, each time worse than before. The second time, went in with a cane, and came out in a wheelchair, and said, “Came back if it’s getting worse.” The third time I was admitted, and within one week, I was a quadriplegic. They tried everything. I was looking at a chin joystick for my motorized wheelchair. They sent me home because there was nothing else they could do – except one thing. They thought my paralysis was caused by my immune system attacking my c2 vertebrae. So, they tried aggressive chemotherapy – the poison kind, not the radioactive kind – and it worked! Sort of. I am now able to walk, to do things, but I am not cured. I called myself a recovering quadriplegic, because that captures my state right now. I am still numb from the waist down, and uncoordinated. Can’t drive. Obviously, I am on disability. Which means I have a lot of free time on my hands. There is term in zoos called “enrichment”, where they throw in a few barrels or something the elephants haven’t seen before. They sort of scare them a little bit, have something to poke and prod and sniff. Something new in their drab, boring lives. I need enrichment. Something new to poke, and prod. Something new. Since I have aphasia, which means I can’t really talk - Something that is essential if you want to do if you have a YouTube channel- It means I will have wordfinding issues. There will be long pauses, especially when telling long stories. A lot of fast cuts so I do do-overs until I get the speaking right. I may slur my words when tired. Which is kind of scary. That’s what my Youtube channel to be. Something to keep me occupied. My thoughts, experiments, reactions. A Mercenaries’ Cookbook of things to do. At it will change constantly. It will be little frightening because I haven’t done it before. It will stop if it no longer does. It will be a ride. Hopefully a few of you will join me. If not, I will be talking to air. But it will enrich me. That’s what matters.