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Why I Almost Quit Cinema (and Chose a Boring Life)

This video is me giving you some context because a few years ago, after finishing a short film (Adeus), something in me quietly shut down. I kept showing up to festivals, screenings, and conversations, doing everything I was supposed to do, and from the outside, I probably looked fine. And yet, inside, it felt like I was moving through my own life out of habit, until I caught myself thinking — and that thought scared me — if this is what making films feels like now, maybe I’m done. What I couldn’t tell, at the time, was whether that thought was true or whether I was simply exhausted. I grew up in the north of Portugal, near Chaves, and coming back here changed the way I experience time. Living here taught me how to wait, how to listen to silence, and, slowly, how to come back to my body. I studied cinema, and I genuinely love analysis, but when I’m being honest, that’s never where things start for me. They start earlier, usually in the body, which is also why it feels more exposed, more fragile, and maybe more frightening. That’s the point. So this channel became a way back to feeling. Sometimes it’s about survival. Sometimes it’s simply a way back to myself. Welcome to The Feel First Gay. I’m really glad you’re here. I feel first. Then I think. We talk… always.🖤 film reactions • reflective film talk • Portuguese filmmaker • burnout & creativity • LGBTQ+ perspective