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It’s been 84 years since I made a video like THIS. Guess that means I’m a little mentally unstable again (let’s be real, never stopped). This edit is basically me trying to capture the kind of chaos we’ve all lived through. Every scene has a piece of me in it — because honestly, that’s how inspiration usually hits: while I’m spiraling through my own mess. (Self-explanatory? Probably. Do I ever explain it? Nope.) the song — “Champagne Coast” by Blood Orange. There’s just something about it I can’t even put into words. It feels like nostalgia bottled up. Like that song you blast while driving late at night and the highway street lights go by you and the green signs showing you the way to a new city, a new beginning ,windows down, the world blurry around you. Or when you were young, playing Game Boy under the streetlights, wasting hours on a swing set with your teenage friends, talking about absolute nonsense that somehow felt like the meaning of life. That’s the energy it gives me — bittersweet, dreamy, and so hard to explain, but so easy to feel. You’ll catch bits of Elena in every shot — plus a cameo from young Elena at the end (she was… a whole vibe). • Aftersun wrecks me every time — summer holidays with my dad, instant emotional breakdown. • Mid90s had to be here, because deep down I’ll always be that sk8er girl who was cool-but-bullied for being “weird.” And yeah, life hasn’t exactly been a straight line. Anxiety attacks, trauma spirals, FOMO, feeling like no one gave a damn… the usual greatest hits. Writing this on my birthday (yay, I’m ancient now), and honestly? I’ve never looked better. Early 30s are serving. If 10-year-old me could grab coffee with me today, she’d think I’m the coolest person alive — and honestly, that’s all that matters. Sometimes I think everything I do is just to heal her, that quiet little kid hiding under the covers with Harry Potter and Avril Lavigne while her parents fought in the background. I’ve been around this little corner of YouTube since 2009 ( tbh 2006 cause i do remember "charlie bit my finger" days and discovering kidrauhl aka jb ) . Editing has always been my favorite way to express myself — my art, my fandoms, my stories. Because at the end of the day, I’m a storyteller. Through the years I’ve learned so much, met people who turned into actual friends, and poured every version of Elena into these edits. Sometimes I scroll back to old videos and I can remember exactly how I felt when I made them — the headspace I was in, the city I was living in, even the chaos I was going through. I once even made a video two days after getting out of the clinic from an operation, because apparently nothing can stop me when I need to edit. The community has changed a lot since those early YouTube years — TikTok showed up and completely flipped the game — but the fact that I’m still here? That’s a milestone I’m proud of. '93 baby Okay, I’m crying now, so whatever. Sometimes I think about the fact that one day I might leave this community. (Don’t worry, I immediately shove that thought back into the dark corner of my brain where it belongs.) But realistically… it’ll probably happen someday. Unless, of course, I have a kid and force them to carry the torch, editing fandom videos at age five while I stand behind them with a glass of wine like a proud stage mom. “Continue the legacy, darling.” Honestly, that might be the only acceptable exit plan. Anyway. Enjoy the video, babes. Love you all endlessly. Stay fab, stay chaotic. ✨ xoxo, Elena