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Kiwiruz - R.E.M

I’m awake but not inside, The lights are on, the room is gone, My name floats by without a sound, Like something I once knew, then lost. No weight in my hands, No pulse in my chest, Just a quiet where the panic used to live. Thoughts slow down to a gentle blur, The noise steps back, the edges fade, I don’t feel better, I just feel less, Like fear took a break today. This feels like REM with open eyes, I’m here, but I’m not really alive, No dreams, no pain, no past, no when, Just now, suspended, paper-thin. The rush comes in, my worries dim, It doesn’t heal me, it just pretends, For a moment I can breathe again In this quiet borrowed calm. My body hums, my mind goes blank, Like static turned into a lullaby, I stare through walls, through time, through self, Not asleep, not awake, just passing by. The fear that chased me all night long Is suddenly too tired to speak, But I know it’s waiting patiently Somewhere underneath. Nothing hurts and nothing’s real, It’s not peace, it’s anesthesia, I didn’t solve a single thing, I just made the questions disappear. This feels like REM with open eyes, No tears left here, no need to cry, I fade into a softer space Where every feeling loses shape. The rush comes in, the dark goes still, I know it’s not a cure, but still, For a moment I can rest my head Inside this chemical silence. If I stay here too long, Will I forget how fear feels? And if I forget the fear, Will I forget myself? I’m not chasing happiness, I’m just running from the noise, Trying to survive the night By turning down my voice. This feels like REM with open eyes, A waking sleep I can’t deny, I know the calm is temporary, I know the cost is waiting quietly. But right now the world is far away, My fears are muted, held at bay, I’m still awake, but I’m not there, Just breathing in the in-between. Morning will ask what I’ve become, When feeling finally returns, But tonight I float in nothingness, Unlearning how to hurt.