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The Fear of Becoming Him

Some fears don’t begin in the moment. They’re passed down through silence, survival, and the stories our bodies learn to carry long before we have words for them. They live in the way we brace, the way we swallow anger, and the way love can feel unsafe even when we want it most. In this episode of Born Tired: Where Survival Meets Healing, I share what it was like growing up with an alcoholic father, and the fear that followed me into adulthood. Not just fear of drinking, but fear of anger, chaos, control, and becoming the very thing that hurt me. This episode is about how survival shapes identity. About building a life around not becoming someone, and realizing that resistance can still keep you trapped in their shadow. I reflect on the ways generational trauma lives in the nervous system, how inherited intensity can feel like a flaw, and how healing isn’t about erasing the past but changing your relationship to it. Because awareness breaks cycles. Because fear can protect, but it can also keep you small. And because you can inherit fire without inheriting destruction. This episode is for anyone who grew up walking on eggshells, for those who carry fear in their body without always knowing why, and for the cycle breakers learning that healing isn’t proving you’re different, it’s choosing who you become. You are not doomed to repeat what hurt you. Your awareness is already the beginning of freedom. This podcast is rooted in lived experience. In growing up in survival mode. In breaking generational patterns that were never meant to be carried forward.  I speak openly about family trauma, estrangement, identity, C-PTSD, and the slow, intentional work of building a life that finally feels like yours after trauma.  Every episode is created for those who carried too much, too early. For the ones who learned to stay quiet to stay safe. For the ones who became strong before they ever felt protected. Born Tired is a space for cycle breakers, truth tellers, and anyone learning how to rest after a lifetime of bracing. A place where your story is not minimized, your experience is not questioned, and your voice is allowed to exist without explanation. You don’t need to fix yourself to be here. You don’t need the right words. You just need to arrive as you are. Your voice matters. Your story matters. And you are not alone. Gentle Reminder: This podcast includes conversations about trauma, family dynamics, mental health, estrangement, and lived experiences. Listener discretion is advised. 🤍 Support the podcast: Buy Me a Coffee — https://buymeacoffee.com/mzd5yc89kkk 📌 Follow me: Instagram: @borntiredpodcast Threads: @borntiredpodcast Substack: https://substack.com/@borntiredpodcast Credits: Written & narrated by Eirene Torres Audio production by Carlos Torres Original music by Carlos Torres Disclaimer: Born Tired is a personal storytelling podcast based on lived experience. This content is not a substitute for professional mental health care and does not provide medical or clinical advice. If you are struggling or in crisis, please consider reaching out to a qualified mental health professional or local support services.