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Cactus & Succulent Shopping at Arizona Botanical Gardens in Clarkdale, AZ

Arizona Botanical Gardens is a cactus and succulent nursery located in Clarkdale, Arizona. It is around 20 miles away from Sedona and a 2.5 hour drive from my home in Chandler, Arizona. I believe it may be the only succulent focused nursery in that area. I first visited this nursery in 2020, the year when my cactus obsession began, where I first discovered the beauty of Myrtillocactus geometrizans. This time I brought my camera to show you all around. There's also bonus footage of my parents and I visiting Tuzigoot National Monument. I hope you enjoy this tour. Arizona Botanical Gardens Website: https://azbotanicalgardens.com Google Information: https://maps.app.goo.gl/b8RBvtu5WJAHc... Tuzigoot National Monument https://www.nps.gov/tuzi/index.htm Taawaki Inn https://taawakiinn.com/ Connect with me on Instagram:   / cookiescacti   My website: https://www.cookiescacti.com **************** **************** On July 27, 2025, my parents and I took our first overnight trip together up north to Clarkdale, Arizona. I had ceased all overnight personal travel for almost three years due to Cookie's chronic health issues. It felt strange staying at a hotel away from home for non-work related reasons. My Mom periodically reminds me not to let the grief steal from the precious present and I agree. Instead, I find that my grief and the precious time spent with my parents live side by side. This is the first shopping video recorded after Cookie died. It is August 9 as I write this, 39 days after Cookie passed and the ache of missing her is growing stronger with time. I am still staying with my parents as I figure out how I am going to return to my house and whether I will be able to make it feel like home again. This loss has felt different from the losses of my previous animal companions, it runs so deep. I want to go home so badly to my old life where Cookie would be waiting for me by the laundry room, but home as I knew it disappeared when Cookie died. I have never lived without an animal companion in my adult life. Some may wonder why I'm not considering another animal companion. The truth is that my experience with Cookie has changed my outlook on keeping animal companions. It's not even the loss itself that stops me, it was the years of dedicating my life to managing her compounded health issues. I lived in constant fear and vigilance for Cookie such that my entire nervous system was wrapped around her needs and well-being. I went well beyond my comfort zone with the needles. The nerves never went away for giving subcutaneous fluids even when I had done it over 200 times. As of now, I cannot face the prospects of going through that again. Will this change with time? Probably, but the time is not right now. As of now I continue to avoid looking at Cookie's photos, videos, and even revisiting memories. It's so awful that the very being that once brought me so much joy and comfort now brings me so much pain and sorrow. I only revisit her footage for the sake of including her in these videos, and every time it results in an emotional breakdown. When I see her footage it feels so familiar and I immediately see her as my vibrant, living, breathing sweetheart. And then I realize all over again that she's gone. It's like reliving the loss over and over again. It sometimes makes me question continuing these YouTube videos. But I also caution myself that these thoughts could be just in the moment and before I know it I post another video. I don't know if anyone reads this but I know that the channel is different after Cookie's death. The joy and energy is dimmed and I recognize that. I don't know what is going to happen.