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Ep 4 | I AM BIGTOWN

The summer of 2025 was pretty fun. Got to do a lot of exploring and hanging out with a few friends here/there. Now, that I think about it, the summer was more healing and refreshing than anything. Despite all the depression from the months (even a whole year or two before), I really kind of took a chance with a few people and opportunities that came in, and it kind of taught me to genuinely smile again. I know that probably sounds depressing/sad, but the stretch of sadness and unfortunate happenings in life really put me in a place where I just wanted a break from it all. Even if it meant completely checking out of life itself. Inadvertently, I think I needed a brief reminder to not take life so seriously, although that's hard to do when you've come to the realization(s) how short life is, and that you only get once chance to live it. I've been pretty consistent with trying to stay physically active. Not as much as I have in the past, but to a degree where I'm pretty satisfied with the results of just showing up and being consistent with the discipline. Music is still a piece of my life. I'm never really too sure about how much I care for it though, or if I'm even passionate about it anymore. If I'm being honest, that's me only really thinking of it in the realm of "what have I done for myself lately?" or "I put more effort into other playing situations that are only temporary, than I do for myself as a creative. Is that fair?" and/or "Servitude vs self-service." I always find, that with the right people, I'm always reminded of how much I truly do love performing; it's honestly as much escapism for me as it is anybody else. But, I do think one thing most musicians who gig somewhat regularly won't ever really publicly admit, is that it can be pretty exhausting (more on this particularly point in a later episode) despite how much you love it. I used to jam with the same few people every week living in NY, but ever since we've all split and gone our separate ways, collaboration of ideas and passions is pretty sorely missed sometimes. But I still do whatever I got to do for me to still get that "fix." Everybody's got their own agenda, and I'm not exempt from that. As oversaturated as music can sometimes feel, and as overpopulate the community may seem, we're all out here taking it one day at a time while hopefully still remaining grounded while doing it. Perhaps you rely on a little bit of delusion in the process, but who's really to say that it proves anything as fact, EXCEPT the fact that you're doing whatever you do for your own sanity? That seems to be the bottom line for all creatives. So, here's another episode of the things going on in my life that help me stay some level of sane through this unique and crazy live of mine.