My Song - Fighting Myself скачать в хорошем качестве

My Song - Fighting Myself

Requested by Ronon Song Lyrics I wake up and my chest feels tight, like a hand on my throat, I stare at the ceiling, tryna breathe, tryna cope. Phone lights up “you good?” I type “yeah” with a smile, Then I sit in the dark with it for a long while. I go to the bathroom, lock the door, lean in close, Mirror looking back like it knows what I won’t post. That thought shows up, quiet, like “you know what to do,” And I hate that it sounds like relief when it’s not true. I don’t want to die, I just want it to stop, I want my mind to be still, I want my heart to unclench, to drop. So I pull down my sleeves, make my voice sound “fine,” Put jokes on my face like a cover line. And when they all laugh, I laugh too, like I’m okay, But inside I’m begging my brain to let me stay. It’s always there behind the noise, behind my smile, Like a bad memory that waits a while. I’m fighting myself in the quiet at night, Tryna do the right thing, barely holding it tight. I don’t want the scars, I don’t want the shame I just want the thoughts to stop saying my name. Then there’s food and it feels like a test every day, I open the fridge, then I step away. My stomach says “eat,” but my head says “don’t,” Like if I give in, I’m weak so I won’t. Skipping feels better, like I’m finally in control, Like losing the weight means I’m fixing my soul. I watch numbers drop and I feel this fake peace, Like “see, you’re getting better” but it never lasts, it leaves. At lunch I make excuses “I ate at home,” I push food around, then I scroll on my phone. My friends talk normal, and I nod like I’m there, But I’m counting and hurting and holding my breath in my chair. And when I’m alone, the same cycle begins, I’m proud, then I’m scared, then I hate what I’m in. It’s always there behind the noise, behind my smile, Like a bad memory that waits a while. I’m fighting myself in the quiet at night, Tryna do the right thing, barely holding it tight. I don’t want the scars, I don’t want the shame I just want the thoughts to stop saying my name. Look I’ve gotten good at hiding it, that’s the truth, Laughing in a room while I’m breaking through. I don’t want people staring, I don’t want them afraid, So I carry it alone like a choice that I made. But it’s heavy and I’m tired and I’m not made of stone, I’m a person who’s hurting and scared of going home. So I’m saying it here, cause I can’t say it out loud I need help, not judgment, not “calm down.” Just someone to sit with me, someone to understand Not fix me in a minute just hold my hand. It’s always there behind the noise, behind my smile, But I’m still here, so I’ll take that mile. I’m fighting myself in the quiet at night, Still choosing tomorrow, still holding it tight. I don’t want the scars, I don’t want the shame I just want my life back from calling my name. If you feel this too, I’m not looking down on you, I know how the dark talks, I know what it can do. We don’t have to bleed to prove we were hurt We can ask for help and still have worth. #acousticsongs #music #newsong #popsongs #popmusic #englishsongs #Popsong #Englishsong #Newsongs #Hiphopsongs #hiphopmusic #chillmusic #hiphopmix #tophits