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Lia - What I Love (Official Audio)

Lyrics : I chase what kills me I kiss what leaves I say I want peace, but I pick my grief Tell me why the only time I feel anything Is when the ground shakes under me Yeah, I know the pattern and I run it anyway Light a match in my own hands just to watch the flame Call it “growth” but it’s self-harm wrapped up like grace I keep choosing broken things like it’s part of my name Every time I get close to something good I pull back like, nah, that’s too much Tell myself I don’t deserve soft love Then blame the world for never giving me enough I fall for people who don’t stay Dreams that always fade Doors that close as soon as I walk their way And I swear it’s not on purpose But maybe I’m the one who taught myself To prefer the versions of life that hurt us I don’t chase peace, I chase the feeling of almost And lose myself before I notice I’m lost The only things I love Are things that are bad for me Or out of reach I run to what I shouldn’t touch And let go of what I need Yeah, I sabotage myself Like I’m scared to be free Tell me why the only things I love Are things that are bad for me Or out of reach I know healing’s real I just don’t know how it feels Every time life hands me something good I flinch like it’s not real I say I want closeness Then disappear when it’s offered Say I want honesty Then hide behind my armor Tell myself I’m broken Like that’s the final answer But deep down I know I’m terrified Of ever choosing better I don’t chase peace, I chase the feeling of almost I guess I’m scared of anything I could actually hold The only things I love Are things that are bad for me Or out of reach I run to what I shouldn’t touch And let go of what I need Yeah, I sabotage myself Like I’m scared to be free Tell me why the only things I love Are things that are bad for me Or out of reach Maybe I confuse comfort with pain Maybe I learned early on That love always takes something away Maybe I don’t trust myself Enough to want something safe So I fall for every locked door And call it fate One day I’ll learn the difference Between love and punishment But for now I’m stuck convincing myself That what hurts is meant for me And what heals is a myth ’Cause the only things I love Are things that are bad for me Or out of reach