Feeling feelings, OBSESSION, escaping, numbness, loneliness: a pattern and hopefully path forward скачать в хорошем качестве

Feeling feelings, OBSESSION, escaping, numbness, loneliness: a pattern and hopefully path forward

This is wildly vulnerable for me to post as much of what was said and felt I don't even share with those closest to me. Maybe the internet is safer? Wasn't it created for a single, middle-aged woman to make videos of her crying? ;) Sharing some self-annoyance over obsessive thoughts, embarrassment, feeling small and the distribution of these feelings in the love category of my life versus all others (intellect, career, social, internal, hobbies, motherhood, etc.). Centering too much around anything outside of self (especially men and objects of interest) leaves an empty person and an empty cup that is dependent on these outside things to fill it up. Experiencing some empowerment of pushing through fears in relationship and ultimately being met with much bigger fears: rejection, not being chosen, and loss of being desired. Aye, aye, aye. This journey continues. Feeling a wide spectrum of feelings is so much more enriching than keeping the spectrum small and narrow. That's numbness and minimizing. Big is better. More beautiful.