Integrating current and past pain: walking with my shadow and figuring out who TF I am скачать в хорошем качестве

Integrating current and past pain: walking with my shadow and figuring out who TF I am

Lifelong emotions that rear their loud, ugly heads when I start paying attention to my own sadness, smallness, and grief. Seeking external validation rather than giving worth, attention, love, recognition all to myself. The yearning and longing to be wanted and loved by an external source is only made more poignantly dolorous and desolate if that's the only well I draw from. The suffering gap between how much I care for another and how cared for I feel by that subject is a chasm I feel much discomfort looking at eye-to-eye. As above, so below. Light and shade. These concepts and recognition of how present they are in my experience. I control my emotions, self-assuredness and power. And I am the one who pulls myself into the emotional underworld. It's all in my power and control. EXCEPT for if I ignore it. If I don't face this head on, feel this pain acutely and intensely now, then I will ensure this pain sits, solidifies, galvanizes, and permeates me into perpetuity. I am in control. I am in charge. This is my path. To walk with my pain. Integrate it into me so we walk as one.