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The Chapters We Tried to Forget | Out of Focus Ep. #23

There are chapters of our story we tried to bury so deep we thought they would silence us forever… but what if the very pages we feared most are the ones God uses to bring us back to life? This is one of the most raw, sacred, and vulnerable conversations I have ever shared. In this episode, my husband Mike and I sit down together and openly share the chapter we once tried to forget — the fall, the emotional unraveling, the weight of shame, and the night he almost ended his life. We speak honestly about spiritual drift, leadership burnout, isolation, and what it feels like to believe you’ve destroyed everything you touch. Mike takes you into the dark moments he has never shared in this depth before — from leading one of the largest churches in America to sitting alone in despair, convinced everyone would be better off without him. Together, we talk about the collapse, the exposure, and the long, sacred, painful road of repentance, healing, and restoration that followed. This episode isn’t just about what happened to us. It’s about what God does when all hope feels lost. We share this not to relive the pain, but to reveal the power of a Redeeming God who refuses to waste even our darkest chapters. If you have ever felt ashamed, disqualified, burned out, or defined by your worst moment — we want you to know this: You are not beyond grace. You are not forgotten. And your story is not over. ⏱️ TIMESTAMPS 00:00 — The chapters we tried to forget 02:22 — From early dreams to pastoral leadership 06:15 — The slow emotional and spiritual drift 10:10 — When joy disappeared 14:40 — “I didn’t care if it all collapsed…” 19:05 — The unraveling begins 23:55 — The public fallout 27:40 — Shame, isolation, and despair 32:10 — “I’ve destroyed everything I touch” 35:45 — The night of suicidal desperation 40:20 — The Scripture that stopped him 43:55 — Repentance vs. remorse 48:30 — Walking through consequences 52:55 — God’s grace in the ashes 57:10 — Hope for the hopeless “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” — Psalm 34:18 If your darkest chapter feels louder than your future, hear this: The same God who met us in the ashes is near to you right now. You are not too far gone. You are not disqualified. And shame does not get the final word — grace does. Content Care: This episode discusses suicidal thoughts and deep emotional pain. If this touches close to home, please listen with care and reach out to someone you trust. You are not meant to carry this alone. 🎧 New episodes drop weekly on YouTube, Spotify, and Apple Podcasts. 📌 Subscribe so you never miss a real story of redemption, identity, and healing. 👇 RESOURCES & LINKS: COMING SOON: My redemptive memoir Out of Focus Instagram:   / _shannon_stewart   Podcast Instagram:   / outoffocuspodcast   Facebook:   / shannonstewartmodel   TikTok: http://www.tiktok.com/shannon_stewart_ 🎙️ All platforms & freebies: https://linktr.ee/shannonstewart 📩 Booking inquiries (churches, conferences, collaborations): info@shannonstewartmodel.com #OutOfFocusPodcast #ShannonStewart #FaithPodcast #ChristianPodcast #RedemptionStory #IdentityInChrist #WomenOfFaith