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I Was a Drop-Dead, 24/7 Vodka Drinking Alcoholic — Here’s How I Finally Fixed Me

I was a 24/7 vodka alcoholic who relapsed 16 times and lived with a bottle under my pillow — and I found a way out. For eight years, alcohol completely owned me. If I picked up a drink, it went from “just one” to non-stop vodka in hours. Detox, rehab, therapy, AA, spirituality, meditation — I tried it all. Nothing could stop the voice in my head screaming: “Drink. Drink. Drink.” This video is my honest story of how bad it got… and what finally changed. What you will learn in this video • What “drop-dead, 24/7, vodka alcoholic” really looked like in my daily life • Why willpower could never beat the thousands of “Drink.” thoughts each day • How 16 detoxes and countless AA meetings still couldn’t keep me sober • Why I felt anxious, ashamed, and sad — but not truly “hopeless” inside • The moment I realized: “I didn’t put this crap in my head… and I don’t have to believe it” • How I stopped identifying with the self-hating, craving voice • What the Instinctual Core (IC) is and how it hijacks your subconscious • Why seeing the IC as separate made cravings lose their power • How this shift led to nearly 9 years of not wanting a drink The turning point One day, sitting over a laundry basket, my brain was doing its usual thing: “You’re worthless.” → Drink. “You’re not good enough.” → Drink. “You can’t handle life or your kids.” → Drink. Then it hit me: I didn’t believe any of that deep down. I hadn’t chosen addiction. I hadn’t chosen lifelong anxiety. I hadn’t chosen the belief that I was a failure. Something inside me was lying to me. Constantly. That’s when I decided: • I will no longer automatically believe anything that comes out of my head • I will trust only a few core truths: I’m capable, I’m worth saving, and alcohol is never the solution • I will treat the craving voice as something separate from “me,” not as my true self That decision led me to what I now call the IC Solution. What the IC (Instinctual Core) is — in simple terms • You are your consciousness plus your conscious brain — the part that can observe and decide • Your subconscious (system-one brain) runs 90% of your behavior on autopilot • The Instinctual Core (IC) is a survival system that plugs directly into your subconscious • Its job is to scan for threats, avoid pain, and grab quick relief — as if you still lived in a tiny prehistoric tribe • In that old world, its instincts made sense. In this one, they misfire constantly. When alcohol shows up, the IC often decides: • “This is how we escape discomfort.” • “This is how we survive emotional threat.” • “This is more important than food, water, or health.” It’s wrong. But it’s loud. And if you think that voice is “you,” it will win every time. Why life got easier when I separated from the IC • I stopped arguing with myself and started disagreeing with the IC • I could hear “Drink. Drink. Drink.” and say, “That’s you, not me.” • Like a puppy that stops barking when it never gets rewarded, the cravings faded • My anxiety around people and social situations dropped as I stopped believing the IC’s lies • Instead of fighting urges with willpower, I trained a confused survival system that simply didn’t understand this world That’s why I can say: I haven’t come close to wanting a drink in almost nine years. If this resonates, start here at https://instinctcenter.com you can: • Watch the IC Quick Start Guide (told from the IC’s point of view) • Go through the interactive IC User’s Guide • Use RADAR and ROAR to track your hijacks and patterns • Join free IC Investigation Meetups • Set goals and “overriding decisions” to change habits over time This is not a replacement for medical care, detox, or therapy — it’s a supplemental system you can use every day alongside them. If you want to support this work • Like the video so it reaches more people stuck where I was • Subscribe for daily videos on cravings, relapse, anxiety, and escaping the hijack • Comment and tell me: “What does the craving voice say to you when it wants you to drink?” I read every comment. Important disclaimer I’m not a doctor, therapist, or addiction counselor. I’m an engineer who nearly drank himself to death and then built a system that helped me separate from the destructive voice inside my head. The IC Solution and these videos are supplemental support only — not medical care, detox support, mental-health treatment, or a cure for addiction or anxiety. Always work with your doctors, therapists, or recovery professionals. If you are detoxing, in withdrawal, or in medical danger, seek medical help immediately.