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the fear of emptiness

proof of life log 007 [11.19.25] live life letter 051 - true jiving dear friends, I have a fear of emptiness. A fear of being empty, a fear of no meaning, a fear of it all being for nothing. I empty my thoughts onto this page, onto this medium, onto the Internet, yet I cannot escape this feeling of the void. Do I feel empty? What is this "emptiness" I speak of? When I feel empty, I feel this indifference take over. I don't desire for indifference. It leads me to resent. I don't desire for resentment to build. Yet, I know it's there, watching me. My own indifferent awareness. A patient observer, indifferent to the actions I take, to the emotions I feel. There, it exists. I feel empty. This could be an illusion. This could be a hallucination. This could be surreal. None of this could be real. You question what is real as if it was some dire concept. You are not the only one. Are you so self-deluded into believing only you exist? You know these thoughts do not help you. They don't move you towards action. It does not help in your own self-determination. These thoughts aren't real. So why feel empty? I feel empty because I fear I am not real. I fear I am not enough. I fear I am being delusional. I fear that I am not alive. I fear that I will not feel alive. I fear there is no meaning. I fear- What is there to fear? There is nothing to fear. The fear is not real. The fear of not being enough is not real. The delusion; there's a chance there is true delusion. To remove fear is delusional. If you remove fear, you remove an element of our humanness. Fear is a mechanism. Fear reminds you that you are alive. Fear breeds meaning. If there was no fear, there would be nothing to overcome. Without fear, what is there? Emptiness. You hesitate. Emptiness? Fear? The void blocks you from your own action. The fear blocks you from motion. Fear makes you hold onto life that much tighter. The fear of losing life itself prevents you from living. You are a contradiction left empty. Full of emptiness. Emptiness? your friend(ly) jakester P.S. happy heavenly birthday tucker, my soul dogster last week's live life letter: https://jake-ochave.beehiiv.com/p/jes... "A work of art is good when it has been born from necessity." Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters To A Young Poet